I heard some really hard news this past weekend, it has been said that one of my grown children has been using methamphetamines, The news has shattered my heart. I always have prayed that my kids would never touch that stuff as they have seen firsthand how it destroys lives and takes away all that you love. Although I seen it to growing up, not with methamphetamines, but with alcohol and other drugs, I always said growing up that is something that I would never do, but I fell into that deep dark place myself.
don't know what to do to help, knowing from experience that you can't help unless the person wants to be helped. I am so scared for my son because of the fentanyl and the animal tranquilizer that they are putting in stuff now is killing so many people. What do I do? Tears just fall down my cheeks when I think about it, and I can't seem to get it off my mind.
He gave his word to one of his brothers that he has stopped and is no longer doing it, but I have said that to in the past, when I was caught in the midst of addiction myself. It breaks my heart after all that we have been through as a family that he won't be honest with me. I don't know what to do to help him. I am 800 miles away. I am crushed. I want to call and tell his girlfriend, the mother to his child, but I don't even think she would believe me. I want to turn his world upside down, but then I feel guilty for feeling that way. I want to fly out there and grab him and ask him what is he doing. He knows how this plays out every time. He has seen it, he has lived it. He has a daughter, he knows that road leads to nowhere and fast. I want to puke I am so upset, I am not mad at him, I am concerned for him, and his family. I just want to help.
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